I guess serious issues are getting to me more often all the time. And they seem to hit me so much harder. But maybe that's because I close my eyes to unimportant stuff. I neglect stupid remarks, I lift my shoulders to haters, I ignore anyhing small, really. And somehow, I never seem to be prepared for a real big hit. Real pain. Or that is just because I haven't let myself feel anything at all for the past six years.
I just need to get clear that I don't want my children (when I get them), to EVER grow up like me. I do want them to have proper education. And good friends. And I do want them to learn important lessons in life, even if that means they have to hurt, but if ever I find out one of my future children gets bullied, there will be consequenses. BIG ones. Because I will never let this stuff happen to them. Over my dead body.
Anyways, I think I might have a brainquake. Like a eathquake in my brains. Darn, that girl has some power in her. I've been feeling dizzy, and sort of nauseous and I get this tiny annoying stab in my head when I move my head too fast. It's VERY irritating.
So, I just dropped off my little sister at her gymnastics class. It's raining like hell outside, and I'm soaked to the bone, but I don't care at all. I like it, really. The rains washes away the bittersweet taste of unshed tears on my face.
And to you all out there feeling bad, low, or brought down: Stay strong. You can get out alive.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocDlOD1Hw9k
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oKsxPW6i3pM
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