Day 137 - Part 1 - Proud of me.

There's a huge stash of homework for tomorrow waiting for me on my desk, I probably failed my French test big time, I still need to work on some big insufficients, I haven't played the piano in a week and I'm slightly teary from the aftermath of writing down my story yesterday, but that doesn't matter. Because I'm so proud of me.
I just got back from running. And then I mean the running-in-the-woods-for-workout kind, not the hurry-hurry-hurry-I'm-so-late kind. I came home today, thinking "I'll be inside all day, and today's a wonderful day, lets enjoy it." I did.
I don't do sports, if you didn't figure that out yet. I cycle to school and back every day, and have PE in school, but I just don't do sports, and I want to change that. Not because I need to lose weight (god, no, I should gain some), not for the extra muscles (with WOULD help in the process of gaining weight), not even because I don't like my figure (I usually kinda love it). Because my physical condition is so low I start vomiting after 6 minutes of real running (almost did in class last Monday) and because I want to be able to get home happy instead of tired from walking stairs and cycling. And, honestly, I would like to not be picked last in PE anymore.
It feels great. I ran about 3 km, with some bits of walking and a break around the middle. It took me about half an hour (proving how bad my condition is), but it couldn't matter less. I finally get what people mean when they say sporting makes you happy. Because, to me, it almost does.
I did find out the weakest link in my body is still my left knee. It was twisted some time ago, I thing about a year by now, and it doesn't hurt or anything, but I do notice it's more vunerable than my other. Oh well, it'll strenghten. I'm planning on making this a weekly thing, for Thursdays are my short days in school anyways, but lets first just see if I make next week. I know myself, I'm not the one to keep up sports.
I cycled home in this sort of daze, though. It's my state of near-happiness, a peaceful look on my face, enjoying the weather and the tiny miracles around me. A butterfly flying in front of my face, a bird singing over my head, people smiling at me and the beauty of imperfection.
And now I need to go take a shower like crazy, because sweat makes me stink.