Day 218 - Part 1 - The problem is, darling, I think you sometimes forget to be happy with yourself, too.

I like today. I really do. And I will like it for some more.
So I have a 9 in Drama. On a scale of 1 to 10. Which, is like, AWESOME. yk, the critics we're grading on (you basicly give yourself a mark, let the group talk about it a little, and then the teacher, she makes up the final mark) are more or less this: did you grow and did you learn what you wanted to learn?
So for growing, I definitely did. I learned to play better, take on heavier parts, I even learned to give better feedback, which is a big part of acting. The reflecting on things and such, yk.
And then for what I wanted to learn. At the beginning of the year, our teacher asked to say why we were taking the drama course. There were all this people going like "for fun, for learning to present something" etc. And I came up with honesty.
Because, what I really wanted to learn in Drama, was to be able to open up. To be honest about who I am and what I've been through, and the learn to trust people. So today, when we were grading, my teacher asked me if I did learn to be honest.
And I said I grew. Because I did. I might not have grown that much as an actor, but I've grown personally. It's less recognisable but more feelable. And I've not so much learned to be open to everyone, but I've learned to be honest. With myself. And I didn't learn to trust people. I've learned to be able to trust people. And that is so much more than I expected.
As it turns out, my day started pretty great. And it didn't fail on me. My lessons were pretty boring but not all too bad, my free period was spend outside in the sun reading a book (One Day by David Nicholls, it's AMAZING AMAZING, you should all totally read it, wow <3) and by the time I turned my iPod on and cycled home, nothing could break my mood. I don't know if I ever said this before but I'll say it again, did you ever notice how every single song turns into asummer hit when the sun's shining and the weather's great? It's amazing. You should try it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yP4qdefD2To&ob=av2e
And what you should also do is read Amino's story. He is a pretty awesome writer, but shush, don't tell him that, no need to make him feel all posh and sturdy. He's special as things are, right?
http://amino-talks.blogspot.com/
ANDANDAND. Why is the mail so freaking slow? Does it really have to take over a week to go deliver a package to Germany? Gosh, Dennins still didn't get his present. :/
Oh, and I signed up for Kunstbende today. Which is a competition for young talent. And I signed up of "Fashion", so third collection, here I come :D

'It's not gonna change you, is it?'
'What?'
'Being very, very, very, very slightly famous.'
~ David Nicholls